Empowering myself

Lately, I have been thinking about my life. The events that have occured that have affected me both in positive and negative ways and most importantly the events that have helped to create my current situation and feelings. Carrie Bradshaw once wondered: When it comes to life and love, why do we believe our worst reviews?

It seems obvious to me that in order to get my life back on track I must empower myself! I must regain my strengths, love myself and believe in myself so that I can move on from everything that has kept me from reaching my potential and corroded my self love. I have to believe the good things I do know about myself and let go of my mistakes and other people's judgements of who they think I am. I must learn from my past but by no means allow it to withhold me from my future! I have to come to terms with different things and today I am making a pledge to tackle those things one by one and heal.

Its always easier to look in the mirror and see the outside staring back at us...and I have let myself go. I think my weight gain is a reflection of the turmoils inside of me...of the comforts I have seeked outside for the drowning helplessness I have felt inside. I know that loosing the weight is the most obvious first step in this journey and I also know, that restraining from my food comforts in order to reach that goal will most likely reveal other more important issues that most be dealt with. It will be an interesting journey...but I believe in myself and I trust that in the end this process will be worthwhile and empowering! :)

Learning about Acceptance

The reason why I started this blog in the first place was to help me move on from a very difficult break up and to embark in a re-discovering of the things I perceive to have lost or forgotten about myself through out the years. I loved him very much...but I am an honest with you and with myself I still love him and miss him dearly every single day. Its been exactly 7 months and 9 days since I broke up with him and I am still not over him...I still struggle with accepting the end of the relationship and the feelings that come from knowing that I just made official something that was broken months before. I still struggle with the feeling of emotional abandonment I felt during the relationship and with the sense of loss that lingers to this day. I still wonder if he thinks of me, if he misses me, if our paths will cross again some day. We both needed to deal with things and neither of us knew how to deal with our individual pasts and the challenges that came in our present in a mature and healthy way...but we did love each other and as for me I still do. Acceptance is defined in a web dictionary as the mental attitude that something is believable and should be accepted as true...I still have a hard time believing its over, but hopefully I will get there at some point...sooner rather than later. I still hope, I still dream of him and us, I still wish for the cosmic order to re-arrange what has been disordered and bring us back together with our lessons learned and our love renewed....I also feel silly for feeling this way. Yup! Nobody said this road would be easy, but for good or for bad is the one that I have embarked on...I just hope everything is worth it in the end...that lessons are learned and remembered and that I grow through this process the way it was meant to occur. So this blog will continue to be a journal, a road map of this process towards my happiness, my peace of mind, my self love and acceptance. Any suggestions?

Have a lovely day!

Things I love

In my journey of self discovery and rediscovery, I think it is important to list the things I know I love and bring me joy. In remembering them I make a pledge to myself to make sure I experience them more often and open up the possibility to keep adding to the list! Any suggestions??



I love: sunsets, the smell of fresh flowers, red wine, chocolate, good friends, good company, smell of burning candles, children's laughter, animals, lazy sundays, cuddling, bear hugs, tender kisses, passionate kisses, massages, manicures, pedicures, home cooked meals, the sound of the waves, traveling, star gazing, morning coffee, afternoon tea, laughing until your belly aches, musicals, romantic movies, bubble baths, thoughtful surprises (give them and receive them!), magazines, music (all kinds as long as it makes me want to sing out loud or dance!), reality tv, taking pictures, making music mixes, thoughtfullness, feeding the birds, broadway musicals, driving, long talks, trying new things, elderly people, good books, honesty, loyalty, my parents, my family, chocolate....that is a good start! :)

The first step in rediscovering my life

Some say life circumstances and experiences make you who you are, but what if you suddenly look back and feel like you lost yourself in some ways? What if you allowed yourself to concentrate or put most of your energy into something or someone and with that choice forgot what made you...you? I have decided to rediscover the parts of myself that I love and have forgotten, discover the things that truly make me happy, and embark on a road towards a more peaceful self loving journey that hopefully leads me to a happier and more exciting existence! Share with me this experience!! Come along!