Learning about Acceptance

The reason why I started this blog in the first place was to help me move on from a very difficult break up and to embark in a re-discovering of the things I perceive to have lost or forgotten about myself through out the years. I loved him very much...but I am an honest with you and with myself I still love him and miss him dearly every single day. Its been exactly 7 months and 9 days since I broke up with him and I am still not over him...I still struggle with accepting the end of the relationship and the feelings that come from knowing that I just made official something that was broken months before. I still struggle with the feeling of emotional abandonment I felt during the relationship and with the sense of loss that lingers to this day. I still wonder if he thinks of me, if he misses me, if our paths will cross again some day. We both needed to deal with things and neither of us knew how to deal with our individual pasts and the challenges that came in our present in a mature and healthy way...but we did love each other and as for me I still do. Acceptance is defined in a web dictionary as the mental attitude that something is believable and should be accepted as true...I still have a hard time believing its over, but hopefully I will get there at some point...sooner rather than later. I still hope, I still dream of him and us, I still wish for the cosmic order to re-arrange what has been disordered and bring us back together with our lessons learned and our love renewed....I also feel silly for feeling this way. Yup! Nobody said this road would be easy, but for good or for bad is the one that I have embarked on...I just hope everything is worth it in the end...that lessons are learned and remembered and that I grow through this process the way it was meant to occur. So this blog will continue to be a journal, a road map of this process towards my happiness, my peace of mind, my self love and acceptance. Any suggestions?

Have a lovely day!